The strangest things can trigger a bout of serious homesickness. This evening I was in the kitchen cooking some chicken and dropped a piece on the floor. For a second I forgot where I was and turned to give Gromit the OK, who I could picture so clearly sitting behind me watching intently with his head cocked to one side, silently betting on my clumsiness with kitchen tongs. Then the vertigo hits. Dog's not there, he's on the other side of the planet along with everyone else I love and who loves me.
Having lost my appetite, I reached for my ipod and went for a walk to contemplate what kind of person opts for self imposed exile in the face of some boredom at work, and a bit of soul scar tissue that just won't heal right. Of course, putting the ipod on shuffle in a vulnerable moment is emotional Russian roulette, my catalog revealing itself as a veritable minefield of songs that remind me of people and places I wish I could visit.
What a day. That'll teach me to drop chicken on the floor.
Suppose it didn't help that I spent the weekend alone, it was Grey and drizzly outside, and in less that a week, Matt and Beth are moving away, soon to be two more people I can't see. I am torn firmly between wanting to see the world and have my adventure, and wanting to spend my rainy Sunday afternoons watching golf with Poppie or ordering Chinese under the electric blanket with Cat and Jude. I want to spend the afternoon writing silly songs with my brother in his studio, or go thrift shopping with Bridget for costume jewelry, or go on a third wheel movie date with Chris and Erin...
どこでもドアーがほしです。
The good news is, I am a pretty happy camper by nature, and I have plenty to be happy about. If I can just remind my face of that, and avoid the ipod until I download some happier music, I should be feeling better in no time. 'No time' equaling two and a half weeks when my Dad and Cheryl arrive and we head down to the Kerama Islands in Okinawa for some quality father daughter time in snorkel gear.
Kerama islands, Okinawa Japan
Hurry up Dad, and bring the happy.
